Hello Tiffy!

God I wish this illness would just go away… So yesterday I went to the doc like I told you but the doc told me that the cold is triggering my asthma which is why my cough and lungs are so bad. I am skeptical of her diagnosis. For one thing, I use an inhaler very rarely for wheezing. I would say I go through an inhaler in 1-2 months. Well now I have gone through a full inhaler in one week. Well she prescribed me a different inhaler to use along with my normal inhaler. It cost me $150! I was not amused. Well last night I had a real asthma attack, I almost went to the ER. I decided to let myself stop panicking and I found it easier to breathe. Oh to everyone thinking what an idiot I am because I complain about inhalers and wheezing… I quit smoking. I officially quit on New Years Eve but I had cigarettes only 2 occasions in the past week. I consider myself quit since the 28th but I have been “100% cig free” since the 1st. I am going cold turkey but only for now…. I can’t breathe anyway so I have no desire to smoke. However I do have a few nicotine cravings. When the cravings get worse I do plan to get the Commit Lozenges - I have too many friends that have told me that cold turkey doesn’t work. I am willing to believe them so I will get help when I need it, but I am hoping I don’t. On one hand I am proud of myself but I am not happy for myself until I have gone a whole month. That would be something to brag about. I do find myself especially bitchy, and irritable since I am sick and I have no nicotine. Oh well. I think I popped a muscle in my back from coughing so much.