Hello Tiffy!

Today was pretty blah, nothing comes to mind that was too exciting. After the refrigerator fiasco yesterday of course I had nothing for lunch today so I went to Burger King and did alright. I got a Tendergrill (AKA Grilled Chicken) sandwich and some Apple Fries and a Diet coke! There was mayo on the sandwich but I think I will live though it. A friend of mine thinks the BK Apple Fries taste like they are dipped in formeldahyde, but actually, I think they are quite delectable, they are also extremely cute, cut into frie shapes and they are kinda yellowish, I would be fooled (considering my current state of eyesight I could be fooled by just about anything). We all know apples taste alright but these are actually really crispy and juicy and delicious. Not sure how they do it but who knows, maybe it is because they are peeled and air-sealed fresh. There is also something about someone else cutting your veggies and fruits for you, pre-cut fruit is big business and you feel like you are 5 again which is always special

I really want to go shopping and buy some new clothes but I keep putting it off until I lose a few lbs, so we will see. I want to work out again soooo badly I was doing great when I lived in CA but it just harder here and..  I would rather go spend time with J if I am going to put off work instead of go to the gym (it isn’t like I want to anyway, don;’t get me wrong - but if I am going to put off work I want to be with him instead). I also find I am tired here and sleep way too much. I feel extremely unhealthy and want to do a lifestyle change I am just too lazy yet. J hinted that he wants to go to the gym I want to go with him if he goes. Maybe we will see, I have heard this frm him before. I guess I am not the only one that has trouble getting on the right foot.

Oh, right now I am being entertained (oh I mean possibly bored to death) by World Series of Poker. The game isn’t bad to play, and not all that bad to watch sometimes but I am so damn tired this is not helping. You know Austin isn’t all that bad in general but I am telling you I would enjoy life a lot more with just one job. I guess that goes without saying, but I am just feeling ragged. Ragged ragged ragged. I feel guilty at almost all times, I mean I should be working 24 7 in my opinion how dare I enjoy dinner away from my computer, or consider talking to my best friend instead of work. I just want to take a week off ya know? My last day off that was officially a day I was not expected to work (not including the moving days which I drove, or moved stuff, or unpacked stuff) was August 2007. Ever since then I was at the start up which we did not get days off. then working from home which, well, every day I should be doing at least a little something and now I am contracting as well which well I basically get no paid days off. I miss days off. Yes I do slack from time to time — but since I get to spend my slack time feeling guilty it really doesn’t count in my opinion. I even feel guilty in my sleep. Speaking of sleep.. I think I will go feel guilty now….